Monday, January 16, 2012

Food on the Brain

One of the worst parts of conscious eating for me is that once I start critically thinking about my food choices, I can't stop. Not in a good building-better-habits sort of way, no, in a catch-22 I-am-totally-obsessed-with-food kind of way. I can have just eaten, be totally replete and still be incapable of thinking about anything other than when I get to eat again. It's totally in my head - the food is good, and filling, and there's more of it later when I want it. I'm a decent cook, I enjoy eating what I make, it's not like I'm not going to get to eat again and it's not even like I'm hungry at all, but there is a corner of my mind constantly thinking about food. This does not happen when I'm just eating whatever crosses my path. I eat whatever it is, and then, when I'm hungry, I start thinking about food again.

I don't know how to shake this, and I am very frustrated by it.


Martha said...

if you figure it out, let me know. I have the very same problem, and it's why I can't stay at one (healthy) weight. It's all or nothing on food for me.

Sarah Gates said...

Well, being too busy to think about it works sometimes, but I don't think that's a good long term plan... In some weird way, my food tumblr is helping a little bit with this. I think it's like listening to the song you have stuck in your head - the constant photostream of food porn is so indulgent of the food obsession that it starts to have a mitigating effect for me. Or maybe I just feel better when I scroll down and look at it!

Thomas's biscuit text today, on the other hand? Not at all helpful!